The Idea

I still remember the first time I saw the sunset here. I needed to finish an assignment of observing things under the sunset for my undergrad first year course. I invited a friend to go with me to the St Kilda pier, we sat there, and I had to listen to him talk about his judgements and biases towards other peers because I was too scared to go alone, I didn’t want to go there by myself, it seems too sad and pathetic to go there alone. But when I was there back then with him, ironically, I felt more alone. So dissociated that I wanted to escape.
Over the years I’ve grown my interest of watching sunsets, I seemed to feel used to watching it alone because I can bear the loneliness with only myself, but I couldn’t bear it when others are around, it feels much worse.
I lived in a West-faced apartment with a big balcony in 2023 where I almost can see the sunset every day, no matter sunny or cloudy weather, I took photos of the sunset when I can remember and plan to make them into a video that represents this unique short period of time which I feel more lonely than ever, but the sunset actually helps, it’s like a special remedy. It makes everything more hopeful, I gain the courage of staying with the feeling of loneliness through the few minute process.

Video caption: I hope I can remember those lonely times, together with the ever-changing sunset. They were saved to my memories and witnessed my journey of life.