Heartbreak After 7.5 Years

The Idea

Loneliness seeped into my soul, like growing mould in the corner of a bathroom. It was always there, but I chose to ignore it. I didn’t want to admit I was lonely. Admitting I was lonely would mean I was admitting my best friend didn’t provide me the level of care and attention I craved. However, once I admitted, it was too late. For too long had I pretended like nothing was wrong when everything was wrong. For too long had I exacerbated her loneliness. Bringing my best and authentic self to her did not help her loneliness. She needed someone else that wasn’t me. She left me without explanation and I was lonely. On a hopeful note, now we have found better friends that suit ourselves better than we suited each other. People who leave you with no explanation have no right to make you feel lonely so find better people.